It's not easy to survive when you finally realize that you don't actually want with what you have gone through.. It's really hard..
I've been through this recently, and I'm barely can't handle it.. After more than a year, it's impossible for me to turn back.. I don't want to experience this.. This is not what I want.. But I have no choice, I have to continue it since this will end soon.. The closer this come to end, the more difficult it felt.. I nearly could not proceed.. I don't know how I will be able to withstand such situation..
Above all, life's go on..